dont be stupid.

Wow, what a feeling. Thinking you could loose the most important thing in your life. That is the worst feeling other than actually loosing someone. I cant even start to explain how dumb I can be. Its crazy how I could just ruin everything if I chose to! Its so easy to do! I never ever want to know that feeling again. I never want to know what it would be like to not have Jason. Ahh. I really do think I would die. Learning the hard way is something that I am well acquainted with and I absolutely do not like it! Its like the saying you never know what you have until its gone, but twisted in some weird complicated way! I know I probably make no sense at all, but at least now I really know what is important in my life. Who really loves me with all his heart. I never realized how much he loves me. I am the most blessed woman so have such a love so strong and distinguishing in my life. Ladies, if you have the love of an incredible man, don't ever, ever let him go. I promise that he loves you if he is willing to take a few curve balls for you. Love is so complicated, and it hurts, and its fun, exciting, terrifying and simply incredible. Including all the pain, tears, bumps and scratches that you get along the way. I have a new appreciation for being loved by someone. There is nothing in the world more important to me.

I found mine and Jason's new song... for now :))

"Its about your heart."
By: Mindy Gledhill

I don't mind your odd behavior
It's the very thing I love
If you were an ice cream flavor
You would be my favorite one
My imagination sees you
Like a painting by Van Gogh
Starry nights and bright sunflowers
Follow you where you may go
Oh, I've loved you from the start
In every single way
And more each passing day
You are brighter than the stars
Believe me when I say
It's not about your scars
It's all about your heart
You're a butterfly held captive
Small and safe in your cocoon
Go on you can take your time
Time is said to heal all wounds
Chorus
Like a lock without a key
Like a mystery without a clue
There is no me if I cannot have you
Chorus
Jessica and I are actually going to see her (Minday Gledhill) in concert on June 3rd for FREE! We are so excited! We have been listening to all her songs lately and she is surprisingly so good!! Thanks Katie for showing her to me! I think that I can officially say that I will be addicted to her for the next month! :)

P.S. The song lyrics above..are the first song that plays on my blogger playlist! :)

A Sticky Situation!

Haha I always have some hilarous story to tell after spend a day driving around with Melissa! We were on our way home from the mall and wedding dress shopping and we had went and gotten two HUGE snow cones! We each got rasberry so the syrup was dark red! As we were pulling away from the snow shack Melissa all of sudden yells "Hold this! Hold this!" haha before I could even turn my head she was shoving her HUGE snow cone right at mine and BAM! All over the car door! She was just trying to grab the wheel so she didnt hit a curb but when she shoved that snow cone towards me she might as well have been punching it with all her force! Haha it was so funny we were laughing the rest of the way home! :))

one week down.. ten to go

I've made it one week! Sheesh it feels like it has been so much longer! I'm excited that he will be home for a week in the beginning of July! It's a good half way point! there is only 5 weeks until then! Although I do KNOW that I need distractions. I have been thinking of hobbies that I can do after work to keep my mind and my hands busy while he is gone and I have it! I am going to make a quilt! A QUILT! I have never been to great at sewing but I have plenty of time to make it perfect! I have a few patterns in mind but this is the one that I have my eye on.. keep in mind that the colors may change completely since I have yet to go fabric shopping! I love making blankets! I made a fleece one for Jason two Christmas's ago and he loves it so I think a quilt will be super adorable to try! Growing up, in my house we never had enough comfy blankets so I am going to try and just make and make tons of blankets to keep forever! If any of you have any ideas for them make sure to tell me!

Fiesta ala Katie and Tabitha :))

Katie and I planned a Fiesta Party for Cinco De Mayo this year as kind of a going away party for Jason. It turned out so cute! We literally spent about two weeks planning it and getting everything in order. It was a complete success. We are planning a movie party outside the week that Jason will be home in July so stay tuned!

It amazes me how mexican they really did look with their stashes haha

This is what a real "MEXICAN MAN KISS" is in Jasons head.

You dont see me complaining haha I love this picture!

(note the cute decor!)

Cheers to the party planners! :)

Jasons face in this kills me haha it shows a peek at all their personalities!

All the boys :))

what the?

I wish I had a handbook for my life, something to reassure me where I'm going and if I'm going to be okay. I feel as if I am going no where. Every single person in my life is having some life altering event happening, and I am just sitting here, trying to figure out my next move. School starts in the fall sure, but thats not exactly the type of adventure I really want to sink my feet into. Jason is what I want. My boyfriend hundreds of miles away, and I feel as though all I am is a big ball of panic. (I have just got to be worring him with all the stuff I'm stressing about hahaha.) I dont know what to do or where to go from here. I wish Jason could just notice that I am just so willing to give him everything I am possibly am. Actually, I am sure he does know it, I just wish that it would hit him a little closer to home. I wish he was here. I would give up everything I have to just have him here... and he hasnt even been gone a week yet. Thats horrible. Its just so hard to function with half of you missing! I know that all of you girls with your significant other know exactly what I'm talking about. Mmhmm. I knew you did. Sheesh this is going to be a long summer. On the up side of things, Nicole is PREGNANT! And Waylon and Melissa are engaged, and Buckley is going on a mission!! See where I feel as though I am not getting anything accomplished? haha sorry for all the blah blah blah but writing always makes we feel just a tiny bit better. XOXO