Jasons GONE HUNTIN..so...

HAHA! I just read my last post. Jason cant wait any longer to get married? PUHLEASE! Yeah right. BOY was I wrong about that. But let me tell you something. If I am not engaged by Christmas, I am going to loose it!!  Ha. Well, its seems to me that when Jason is out of town I really just get to thinking a lot. (Too much extra time on my hands now.) I have a really hard time saying what I am thinking out loud so I am hoping this makes more sense then me just talking ha!  I just cant believe how much I really do love him. Sheesh that man has no idea either.  Okay, maybe he knows a little :) But its just crazy how much love you can harbor for just one individual. I never want to loose that. I can be so stubborn and selfish sometimes and that really doesn't help in relationships at all! I have just the easiest time just saying, sure whatever, it will all work out. I wish I had the talent of verbal communication. Poor Jason is always guessing what Im thinking. I am sure emotional too. But strangely simple, SO ITS ALL COMPLICATED! Poor guy. Men will never understand women. We dont even understand ourselves. I am learning though, Haha but hey! I am sure he will catch on one day. He chose me:) Sucker;) JK.     He really is the one that I want to spend forever with. I cant wait to start that new part of our life together. One day soon ;) In general conference today a woman talked to husbands on how to raise little girls and you know what the one thing that she kept saying? "Make sure they know how much you love their mother." "Love their mother always." I just cant stop thinking about how different things might have been. Oh well, no use dwelling on what ifs. I am look straight at my future. Square in the eye.  Im not scared of the sacrifices, or the trials, or having to do it alone. I am scared that I wont be able to savor every single second that I have with him, or kids, our grand babies, our families. I am forever going to need to remind myself to slow down. Heres to trying.